Surviving Grief

The years that followed losing Liam were our darkest times. We were working through so many devastating things at once. First and foremost we lost our first born child, something we never though possible. We didn't know why we lost him. Upon understanding his genetic condition, we were crushed and felt lost with our faith and what our future could or could not have held. We went from having a family to not knowing if we would or could ever have any other children. Why did this happen to us? Were we being punished? Where were my husband and I now? Could we allow each other to grieve in our own ways and support ourselves? How do we grieve? Any time we didn't feel miserable we felt guilty. How do people heal from this? It took time. We did it our way, how it worked best for us. We took a lot of time for us. The pain is always there, but we have a lot of light in our lives now. The fact that we were incredibly blessed with having more children helped in tremendous ways. These posts were before that happened, while we wondered if it would ever happen, or if we were ready to even want to try again.

   

The Separation

The Silence

The Ugly

The Upcoming Holidays

The Tears.

Holidays 2015

A letter to Liam James: Year Three

The Light

The Memories

Life Moves Pretty Fast Standing Still

The Truth

The Hope

The Crazy

The In Between

The New Year